Inchoate · Incites

They say never edit the editor. I can't help it. Sitting here looking at stories and thinking where they might go and I know...yeah this might fit them, this might not. It's like I know I can't write a 'Stan' story. It's just not how my brain works. I have to write what I write. It's another reason why I have such difficulty with themed anthologies. Sure, I can write a story to the specs, but is it what I do? Not really. The image, the line, the dream sequence in my head build their own tales. Don't want to fight against that.
Meanwhile, back from the road for a while. Trying to find my sense of wonder and love again. I know I put it here somewhere.

Back in Singapore, a week of meetings prior to Tokyo next week, with a few returns to report.


Clarkesworld - 3 days
Fantasy Magazine x 3 - 2 days, 2 days, 12 days
Brain Harvest - 7 days


Borderlands - 111 days, Sale. "Disney's World" planned for Easter.

Meanwhile, doing more scribbling in the background. I'm into my get up at 5:00 before work and do work regime. There's a slightly odd novel that is growing as I write, untitled as yet.

I am unsure which one of us lives and which one is in hell. I am in endless sheets and it is so hard to tell one from the other. Sometimes I am myself and sometimes I am my mother. We love each other equally and at the same time, we hate. She sent the dolls today, but they were more than dolls and when their transforming faces erupted in matt white flesh and my mother gently lowered the blood machine around my head—or was it my sister?—all became red.

Okay, sitting in the Northern Beaches of New South Wales in a place called Terrigal, north of Sydney. It has been hectic the last few days with family stuff. My brother's wedding tomorrow. I had no internet connection at all while in Bathurst which is in the west of New South Wales. I had no idea withdrawal pains would be so bad.

Anyway, quite a bit of scribbling done and more to be done today. I might manage a little tomorrow before I have to head off to the event. Then Saturday, transfer to a Sydney airport hotel in preparation for an early flight on Sunday morning back to Singapore.

After that, maybe, it's back to business as usual.